I was raised extremely Catholic. Not so much in a daily mass, weekly confession, don’t-you-want-to-become-a-nun sort of way. More like a church on Sundays, memorize your prayers, receive the sacraments, and show up for holy days sort of extreme.
I guess you’d call it more serious than extreme religion-ing.
At any rate, a major rite of passage for us was first communion, a sacrament we received in third grade. If you know any Catholics then you know this one is a pretty big deal (okay, they all are), but speaking from someone who remembers what it was like to prepare for it at eight years old? It was a big freaking deal.
Before you could receive holy communion, though, you had to receive the sacrament of reconciliation. Most of you have probably heard of this one as confession. As in, face the priest (who, I’ll admit, always made me nervous because they were, like, HOLY), remember the prayers, and confess your sins.
There’s nothing like waiting in line for confession to make an eight-year-old’s mind go completely blank. My visit with the priest would be imminent. I had to go in there and say something. And I had nothing. Nothing. Suddenly I was Mother Teresa, love personified, instead of the girl who hid half her dinner under the bathroom sink and tormented her younger brother by hiding his stuffed bear. Puh-lease.
But when push came to shove my brain would freeze. So I’d find myself with the priest, supposedly examining my conscience, and admitting to things like I didn’t clean my room or I didn’t share my cookies. The lamest sins ever, but still quaking in my proverbial boots because HOLY. Looking back, I can’t begin to imagine how those priests sat through fifteen third graders admitting to sin (lite), without even cracking a smile.
Pretty impressive, when I think about it.
Linda’s Stream of Consciousness prompt is always a fun way to empty your brain onto the screen. This week’s prompt is “admit.”