So how many times can a person apologize for going AWOL before it’s no longer an apology? At some point does this just become background noise?

I’m trying very (very) hard here. BrightSide was watching something today that said JUST DO THE THING ALREADY. I’m paraphrasing here, it was less aggressive than that, but I’ve found when something rings true for me it often translates as yelling inside my brain.

This one went something like what’s something you should be doing that you aren’t? EXERCISING. FINE, YES, EXERCISING IS SOMETHING I SHOULD BE DOING THAT I’M NOT. I KNOW IT, YOU KNOW IT, WE ALL KNOW THE DAMN THING. IT’S. THE. EXERCISING.

My brain gets super mouthy when something is pushing against it.

Except I was wrapping things up for the night and realized writing is on that list, too. Writing is something I should be doing that I’m not. I’m a better me when I’m writing — more centered, energized, calmer (yes, BrightSide, really), and productive. It’s generally an all around good idea for me to word vomit into the blogosphere yet here I am, piddling along with nary a post to be found.

I’m sorry I’ve been AWOL. I’m dealing with some tough news here. I also think I’d be dealing better (no, it’s not a competition but still…better) if I put on my big girl writing pants more often.