I’m seeing a trend. A personal one, that is. I’m not about to drop some overarching view on themes in the universe so dial back those expectations please.
The real world can be hard on creatives.
Me, myself, and I
That’s it. Thank you for coming to my Ted Talk.
Just kidding. I’m finding the world a bit overwhelming at the moment, and by moment I mean the last six years or so. Or longer if I’m being honest. Is it possible we’re talking a lifelong pattern here?
For Pete’s sake, Laura, don’t get derailed.
I’m starting to feel a certain squirrelly quality to my creativity. It shows up like let’s write a post on holiday shopping – SQUIRREL! How about colleges – SQUIRREL! Maybe traffic or pollen or cooking or sleep – SQUIRREL SQUIRREL SQUIRREL!!!!!!
Except it really looks like let’s talk holiday shopping – genocide! The college search process – access to healthcare! Traffic or pollen or cooking or sleep – equity, politics, housing, trauma!!!!!
You see what I’m saying? There’s a high wire act to balancing out the light and dark and frankly I’m not doing great at the moment. I was gonna say I’m failing at it but life is hard and we shall grant ourselves grace, dammit.
Because I’m an English major I chose my title’s apostrophe placement carefully. Most of you are writers and know precisely what I mean; the rest of you just rolled your eyes because I’ve solidified my Punctuation Weirdo status.
I’m owning this ping pong game but I have a feeling creatives everywhere are familiar with the juggling. I’m trying to find my footing and will take any advice you’ve got.
Riddle from the Middle 
I couldn’t agree with you more. I seem to have the exact same problem when it comes to what I wanna write whenever I’m in the mood to write. It seems I too, have a SQUIRREL problem. Even after being diagnosed and treated with A-ADD (Adult Attention Deficit Disorder), it’s still very much a problem. Especially now that I’m in the process of writing my thesis for my English Composition Class. Ugh! I don’t know what to do. I am just as out of sorts with it as you. Sorry I don’t have any helpful tips or suggestions at the moment, but I promise if I find any for myself, I’ll be happy to share them with you.
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That would be kind, thank you! I try to keep up but some days are better than others. Good luck with your thesis.
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Life just currently feels too full, too complicated, often feeling like it’s heading in the wrong direction. It’s a good job that I have such a boring life as I couldn’t fit any excitement in. I just feel like I’m burning out yet not doing enough to burn out…. Good luck with navigating all these waves and currents. You got this.
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Thank you, I really appreciate the encouragement. Too full and too complicated is an excellent description.
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I try to keep my writing available as an escape. There are too many balls to keep them all in the air. Good luck with the ones that matter.
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Thanks, Dan. I have to believe I’ll come out the other side of this.
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No advice from me, but I’m feeling your vibes. What? I don’t say things like that, but I really do get what you’re saying. During the Trump reign I posted frequently, displaying in full my indignation, my fear, all those emotions those years evoked. And still invoke, but I need to temper them, to not stoke the fires, and thus – no posts have been coming from me. One cannot live comfortably in that emotional climate. Or at least I cannot.
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The Trump writing years felt a little like riding a roller coaster with my hair on fire. I remember feeling tired. A lot.
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