“Don’t be ashamed to weep; ’tis right to grieve. Tears are only water, and flowers, trees, and fruit cannot grow without water. But there must be sunlight also. A wounded heart will heal in time, and when it does, the memory and love of our lost ones is sealed inside to comfort us.”
– Brian Jacques
Sometimes I still fight the tears. I feel them coming, my chest tightens, and my instinct is to hold them in for fear that once I start crying I won’t be able to stop. I have to remind myself it’s okay to cry, even now, even ten months later. It may be ten years later and there will still be days with tears.
But I do believe tears are part of that life source, as is the light, so I know I need a balance of both. There are moments of sorrow, sometimes days that are long and hard, but there are also moments of great joy. Times when I laugh with ridiculous abandon with my kids, bent double with giggles as they remind me how precious these years of their childhood are.