At the beginning this was basically a mommy blog. The kids were young and I was striving to reconnect with who I was as a person before taking care of family took my life hostage.

That sounds dire but the parents get it. Stay at home parents really get it. Hopefully everyone else can sympathize enough to know I didn’t hate my life, I just found it overwhelming and often all encompassing.

Anyway, I wrote a lot about life with kids and adoption issues and occasionally the wacky components of life in general. I feel like there was a decent amount of humor infused into those posts but they were definitely more relatable if you also had offspring galavanting around your home.

What can I say. It was the soup I was sitting in.

But I’ve been torn for a couple of years now. My perspective has shifted to seeing too much child content as problematic. This probably has a great deal to do with TikTok content creators who solely use their children for content — there’s an ick factor there that those kiddos are being used to generate revenue but also a grave concern that they’re being put out there on the internet when they’re too young to give informed consent. [And now I’m irritated by the phrasing “solely use their children for content.” I mean to say all of their content is centered around their children.]

Anyway, every once in a while I wrestle with whether to delete chunks of my early content. There are photos in there and personal stories about my (now young adult) children. A few years back I announced I wouldn’t be producing as much child centered content as they were getting older — there’s still parenting content but with more of a focus on my experience. Or at least that was my intention; I hope I achieved it.

I asked my grown(ish) people a few years ago if I should take it down, if they’d prefer not to have their young years chronicled on the internet. They said it was fine to keep it up but still, this mama wonders sometimes if I should revisit that choice.

Linda hosts Stream of Consciousness Saturday. This week’s prompt is “at the beginning.” Use it any way you’re inspired to. Enjoy!